it has been a rough week for me, battling both school work and my emotions. i dunno what has gotten into me this past 2 days. i guess i was already at my threshold being too forgiving when people have unknowingly upset me. i've been thinking real hard, is it really my fault why are they treating me this way, or is it just out of pure mischievous? i really wonder sometimes. but after speaking to my friend while we were on our way back from K.K hospital, i realised that i have been giving in too much. there has to be a limit in some point in time where i can be treated seriously.
from being called names to being taken for granted. could all these have been avoided if i had shown how i really felt in the first place? i guess the fault lies in me for being such a coward to show my inner emotions to others. i guess my emotional intelligence is just way at the bottom.
huis had a long conversation with housemate about my unhappiness with him taking me for granted. though there wasn't a major event that sparked off my displeasure with him, but it was a collective of snowballed events that made me wonder, am i expecting too much from my friends? probably yes and no? but this has led me to open my eyes to those i should really cherish. those that have taken my friendship seriously and would give me a glimpse of encouragement when i needed one. those who could sense that something was wrong with me while i kept quiet and acted as if nothing had happened. i truly thank life or even God for giving me this opportunity to meet these peeps.
as for now, i have decided to let go of any expectations that i have and just fulfill my duty as a friend. i'll not go to the extra mile anymore because from the lessons that i have learnt these past 6 years, these efforts will lead you to no where eventually. why not take the time to live my life rather than others.
yesterday, i finally found back who i was. it felt good to stand up to myself. though they had apologised to me, the damage had already been done. i can't be mad with them for a long time since the fault does not lie entirely on them since i was involved as well. if i had put on a fight before, if i showed them that i had humility, then things might have been for the better.
i just deserve a form of respect like anyone else does.
thoughts
- a supermassive blog update
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obirick- November 12th, 1:05
hey to those who have been a keen follower of my blog, now is a super long update of what i have doing for the past 2 months every since i left noose land.
below is my timeline of activities that are lined up for me in the exciting months ahead to come (yeah right...)
been busy with school work and recently cleared all my projects and presentations that are graded. currently in the midst for the preparation of the exams. my first paper will be like next week and i hate the system in NTU where all lessons ends just the week before exams.
next week: exams 1st paper on Understanding China Today
next next week: more exams 2nd paper on Eco-Architecture
next next next week: last paper on Strategic HR functions
next next next next week: interhall games >>> woohoo! this year i'll be taking part in vball, carrom, squash and softball i hope! felt quite guilty for not going for all the training except for vball. seems that vball is still my only thing that i can do so far.
next year: going to paris with some of my hall mates! current team that is going: bobo, muns, me, huimin and probably will meet neek over there once he finish his exchange in sweden.
to fei and fel! i seriously miss u guys! can we like meet up one day real soon! there is so much things to catch up with u all!
- happiness
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- obirick
- July 14th, 12:40
woot~ i just completed downloading man vs wild for all 5 seasons, i'll be catching every episode of bear grylls as he hikes through deserts, mountains, rainforest etc and eating any stuff that he could possibly find and that will definitely include unappetising stuff. time to laze around and entertain myself with bear!
this week will be my last week in OSA and yipee hurray that i'll be leaving noose land because things here aren't the same as before. but i'll definitely miss some of my colleagues here and probably this will be the last time that i'll come back again.
but i am still darn happy because from now till school reopen, all the time will be for me, although i'll be stuck at home listening to my mum's nagging.
3 weeks from now will be luc's 1st month on planet earth and hopefully i'll be able to plan and make it to the party on time after my dad unleashed his what-can-be-more-important-than-your-nephew-first-month-celebration face at me hinting me to drop all activities that day. part of me wanted to do that but another part of me feels otherwise. the main reason for not wanting to attend the party is not because that i am some enthusiastic kid that enjoys the fun in senior camp, in fact i don't, but it is more that i do not really wanna entertain my relatives. you know after a while, it gets really bothersome that your relatives kinda forget how old are you and you have to repeat yourself not only at this time but later on during chinese new year. i may sound like some anti social ungrateful brat who doesn't want to be any closer to my relatives, but hey, if that is how i am. i don't wanna be that little boy that smiles and laughs at every little comment they make while trying to strike a conversation with me.
working towards a goal to live how i want my life to be!
- all the single ladies, now put your hands up!
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- obirick
- June 14th, 12:30
i was watching some youtube to kill some time yesterday, and i came upon this youtube video that really laugh till i almost fell off the bed.
it was a parody of the single ladies video by beyonce, and justin timberlake and the rest of the saturday night live crew were goofing around with her.
this is the original version
beyonce is really gorgeous
- he is out of the closet!
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- obirick
- June 11th, 11:15
as all my friends know that i am a american idol junkie, so i am really KPO whatever that is related to idol. and the latest update of post american idol is that adam lambert is OUT of the CLOSET!.
in his latest cover shoot for the rolling stones, adam lambert took this chance and announced that he is officially gay~
actually we all kinda expected this so that isn't much to be surprised about, considering that his raunchy photos with another guy has been spreading across the internet like wildfire, hot enough to burn down all the trees in america.
but the one of the comments that he made was kinda akward.
he actually said this
"Oh, sh--, they put me with the cute guy. Distracting! He's the one guy I found attractive in the whole group on the show: nice, nonchalant, pretty and totally my type — except that he has a wife. I mean, he's open-minded and liberal, but he's definitely 100 percent straight." - The Rolling Stones
I was like "wow, this guy is really brave to say that he had a crush on Kris."
For those who do not know who is Kris, he is the current WINNER of american idol 2009! woot~ sorry i am a kris allen fan too!
here is a photo of him
he is just the typical guy-next-door, that every girl will melt when he smiles at you.
Erm... it seems that they are really good friends, but i kinda figure that Kris might not actually know that Adam had a crush on him. But I guess it was pretty obvious that Adam might have felt this way because of all the peeps in the group, Kris is definitely one the better looking guys out there, and somemore he is married - it is like some forbidden fruit that you can ever eat making him more hard to get.
But oh well, Kris is married with his beautiful wife, and Adam is attached to his interior designer boyfriend, Drake LaBry as well.
awww.... so sweet
too hot to handle?
Kris seems to be ok with Adam's sexuality and supports him all the way. He is really cool man~
You can check out Kris's views here
Seriously, Adam Lambert has my utmost respect for being so brave.
- funnies
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- obirick
- June 9th, 21:59
i was going through some of the photos that was taken by my mac, and seriously, the special effects on the photos is really that hilarious.me, fel and fei
and of course my adorable nephew who was fooling around with my macbook
looking like a moose a chimpanzee
watcha looking at? i dunno how to describe this
the wonders of macbook!
- derrick is getting fatter!
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- obirick
- June 9th, 9:28
guess what people! i've put on 2kg of weight for the past dunno how many weeks. even thought it took some time to put on this measly amount of weight, but hey at least i did put on some eventually.
my new goal would be achieving another 5kg more for the next few weeks!
finally i feel fatter now. woots~
and also, i've decided to get rid of having the habit of starting my blog titles with the word 'the'. realised all my entry titles start with 'the'? oh well time for a change!
- the monday blues
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- obirick
- May 25th, 12:14
what could the worst thing that happen to you on a bright monday morning besides dragging yourself out of bed to make it in time for work?
you notice someone who wears the same working shirt as you do while taking public transport.
and to top things up, both you are forced to stand next to each other, face to face in a squeezy MRT train, so both of you cannot act cool and act like nothing happen.
and i was that unlucky dude who was trapped in such a situation today...
- the american idol: kris allen wins!
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- obirick
- May 22nd, 11:14
the boy next door that will melt you with his great smile vs the guy who wears nail polish and funky style of dressing. i would pick the one that can melt me like a ice cream and so did america!
- the fairfield badge
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- obirick
- May 22nd, 10:04
today marks the 5th day in OSA. (yes i returned back to Noose land to feed my poor little Bonia wallet with some Yusof Ishak paper) and i've been surfing the net VERY discretely because some little bird complained about me watching youtube during working hours.
oh well, now to protect my little ass from being kicked again, i've mastered the art the Alt + Tab combo to toggle between my windows, the art of hearing the "clig clogs" footsteps thousand of miles away and also placed my shiny iPod in front of me to check whoever passes by the door behind me.
anyways back to the point. i was so bored during work that i visited the fairfield website i found this!
and to my amazement, they actually did it! check the following pictures for this event
but then i wondered how come me and my some other friends did not know of this event. could it be that the alumni thought the the old boys and girls become to fat over the years such that probably they don't need 4500 people and then they cannot break the singapore record as a result. looking at the pictures, there was this sudden surge of emotions, a sense of reminiscence that i was once a fairsian and those times were my happiest.
now after being through JC, NS and now in the uni, i've come to realised that i've been brought up in a different fashion compared to my peers, the ideals and thoughts differ so much, meeting many obstacles along the way that tears me apart whether to stand alone on my ideals or to compromise them and follow the norm. but i guess this is what everyone faces and this is probably what they call growing up.
at least i have old friends that share the same ideals as me and i know that i am not alone...
- the star(ry) awards
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- obirick
- April 28th, 15:19
i think the star awards now are getting a little too boring for my comfort as it is beginning to become more biased in a sense that those who starred in a mega big drama like "the little nonya" this year, you will confirm win something in the show unless your acting really sucked in the mega big drama that you starred in. with all the nonya hype since the end of last year, it is really beginning to bug me and it has that turn off effect now whenever i see a plate of nonya kueh, irks!!! i think they had like 1 show on the nonya reunion during chinese new year, 3 shows on nonya cuisine, released the "little nonya show", a nonya musical and alot of restaurant are hogging onto the nonya fever to advertise their food.
and this year, in order to prevent any overruns like all the other star awards show in the past, they forbid the stars to thank too much and also installed this horn indicating to them that their one minute of speech was up. so rude man, and that horn sound is those kind you use during game show if you had to answer a question in 5 seconds those kind one. what was the organiser thinking man? at least give the poor actors some time to express their gratitude.
anyway a recap of the winners during this "starry starry night"
best drama: little nonya
obvious isn't it? they postponed the damn show so that the little nonya can be nominated and hopefully sweep all the awards during the show! i think the most deserving show should be "by my side", the show about aids one, that one more sad and realistic to current society leh.
best supporting actress: xiang yun and ng hui
i thought the category was best supporting actress and not "actresses"? once again proven the point that the "little nonya" crew is all set to kill everyone! out of the 6 nominations, 5 were from the nonya gang! omg to the poor girl was is not from the nonya gang! maybe she was punished this way cause she didn't like nonya kueh? anyways think they planned to give all the 5 the best supporting actress, but guess they wanted to make it less biased, so instead they gave 2. like the viewers believe that! ok i got to admit it, they do have the credits to get the award, but next time, keep this kayu-ness under wraps ma! maybe one can win, then they share the trophy together off screen rather than having 2 awards given out. they can work a timetable like one of them keep the trophy during odd days then the other on even days, then on sunday they can go out together and share the day equally!
best supporting actor: chew chor meng
amazingly survived the onslaught of the nonyas as 4 nonya boys dominated the charts for this award. one of the best deserving award that was given out to the correct person! you deserve it!!!!
best actress: joanne peh
everyone thought it would be jeanette aw! but its not! it went to the dark horse joanne peh! woo hoo! i guess actresses that have a rape scene in their shows will usually get the best actress award, like how zoe tay got raped in the show when she just started out! erm.... not much comments on this one cause didn't really watched all performances of the others.
best actor: chen han wei
another well deserved award! his take on being the aids patient was really believable and heart crenching to watch! backed up with zoe tay as his co star, who could possibly snatch this award from him man! but his comment on the black rose that he wore to threaten the other nominees was a little turn off though! but on the whole, good job!
best variety show host: guo liang
i guess its time to give this under-the-radar host some time of recognition. seriously, i mean he has been working his arse off hosting many major shows and his own show for 10 years plus already! his skills are authentic and less gimicky as the other host truly shows his professionalism! he has grown must ever since we saw him in "huan dao zui zui zui" with quan yi fong! a pat on your back!
best newcomer: dai yang tian
this one so obvious right! he is the best looking chap among the rest! all the girls go googoo gaga and melt in front of him hoping he would call them yueniang or yueniang's grandma or mother? (i dunno i'm so confused with the character plot). and also the producers might be scared that if they don't give it to him, he might take out his ping pong bat and balls and start a riot with them! and what the hell was he wearing?
top 10 most popular female artist:
quan yi fong, felicia chin, yvonne lim, rui en, joanne peh, xiang yun, jesseca liu, ivy lee, vivian lai, jeanette aw
this time round, only 2 princesses, fiona xie and dawn yeoh did not make it to the top 10 cut. joanne peh and jeanette aw managed to pull this one off with their nonya show. and quite shocking (i used quite here cause in the guys category got more shocking results) as yvonne lim made it after a long drought for her. i think michelle chia could have made it, but oh well, its the public vote. a props up for quan yi fong for showing us her vulnerable side as she took this chance to express herself in front of national TV.
top 10 most popular male artist:
tay ping hui, zheng ge ping, qi yu wu, pornsak, henry thia, mark lee, chen han wei, elvin ng, christopher lee, bryan wong
pornsak was damn funny when he gave his speech, giving thanks to the public for giving this thai boy a chance despite the nonya fever that was going on. yes the most shocking one is henry thia!!!!! omg man! he is actually more popular than some of the better looking guys like pierre png, adrian pang. but why him? i am still recovering the shock after they announced this! i thought marcus chin might have gotten it because the aunties and uncles will call in to vote for him since they are usually the one staying at home watching the talenttime show "huang jin nian hua". this was like one of those bad american idol result shows man!
as you can see, this is a rather weird night.
- the story of hong gil dong
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- obirick
- April 28th, 14:28
i've just finished the hong gil dong korean series that i just bought. it has been a long time since i reverted back to the korean drama mama craze again. the show was a hilarious one but one of its most unique element was its unconventionality.
anyways, the story was about an illegitimate son of a minister of the country called hong gil dong and he was treated as a slave in the family and was never given a chance to call his father. but soon, all this changed after he was framed by his own brother who allegedly had planned the robbery in their house that went out of hand when someone got killed during the process. as a result, hong gil dong had to run for his life and eventually joined a brigands of thieves to find out exactly who killed the burglers during the night of robbery. then it seems that the people that were involved in this unfortunate event was a prince that was plotting a revolt against the current king that had killed his mother in order to get the throne. hong gil dong and his gang soon started to plot their revenge against the world by robbing the rich and helping the poor, just like robin hood.
the story soon progresses on with hong gil dong and the prince working together to overthrow the current king but soon realises that their intention to fight were very much different. hong gil dong wanted to fight for a new world creation that could give people life him who was born of lower class an opportunity to experience life like the higher class people, but the prince who managed to overthrow the king in the end soon finds himself stuck between being the king that the people want and the ministers that wanted to keep the status quo. so in the end the prince that became king decided to listen to the ministers and fight hong gil dong.
the ending of the show was rather disappointing because i was craving for a happily ever after ending, but it ended so abruptly without indicating whether hong gil dong survived anot? but one thing is for sure and i do agree with one of the message that it was trying to point out, is that no matter how much things have changed since the era of hong gil dong and even up till now, there will definitely be a hierachy system that will be created to distinguish the higher and upper class, and there will always be someone that will carry the spirit of hong gil dong who will try to change the world so that we can live without oppression. but i guess things have change for the better now as we are living closer to the world that hong gil gond wanted to create.
anyways, the drama is not as serious as the post here, it is super duper funny! the music is also damn catchy sia!
- the perfect imperfections
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- obirick
- April 9th, 23:23
today finally marks the end of all the academic matters that has been disrupting my time to revise the needed attention accounting exams. i had a presentation for my comm funds module and finally its over! the only regrets i had for the presentation was i lost my chain of thoughts half way through the presentation and paused for damn long and there was this deafening silence. just sian to the max man!!!
the day seemed to be going downhill because i had to receive my business law assignment after my presentation and i was not confident about getting the grades after my tutor went through the assignment two days ago. i was expecting a "C" grade, but to my freaking surprise, i score an A!!!!! OMG man, i just love my tutor! i would like to thank my sister, my sister friend, my tutorial mates, my sp and many others who helped and confused me along the way while i was drafting out the essay!
anyways, i read through my essay once again trying to discover why it managed to get such deserving grades, and i finally got it. it wasn't about finding the correct answer, it was about injecting quality thoughts and viewpoints. although there was so many imperfections in my essay, it received the perfect grade that i was soughting for. sounds cheesy i know, but who cares! i got the first A for this semester!
and coming to the topic of the perfect imperfections, the garment recently released a family commercial that really struck a chord in me. the storyline was unconventional and also raised some taboo issues. the story situates itself in a funeral, where the wife of the deceased shares her memories of her husband in the least pleasant manner. but all this disgusting habits were the perfect to her even though they were imperfect. another arty farty concept here, but it is really that good! it definitely left a damn deep impression.
- the indulgence
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- obirick
- March 29th, 20:05
wow two entries in a row! and a confused state of feelings just after typing the previous entry that was kinda a surpressed-let-it-all-out entry. exams are in less than 3 weeks and seriously, this is the crucial period to really make up for all the lost time and to push up my below-average GPA scores. but with the new addition of my new love (which is the new mac book i bought) and the chance to stay at home for the past week, i have been in indulgence to enjoy and relax from the hectic life i had earlier on.
please to say... I HAVE TUNED BACK MY BODY CLOCK! now it is early sleep, early wake up and fresh to study lifestyle that is driving me on. i will be using the last ounce of energy left to chiong for the exams.
all the way derrick! and get a 5.0 GPA at the end!
- the innocent mistake
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- obirick
- January 31st, 15:59
i'm really fucking pissed off, even though i still have to pretend a composure that i was WRONG. it was a genuine mistake that i accidentally left one of the recreation teams out in the photoshoot schedule. and he made it seemed like i deliberately left his team out for whatsoever reason. i mean come on, we are already adults, and if i did left the team out, he could have just told me straight in the face and i would gladly take it into stride. but no, instead, i got the news from cass who in turn heard it from someone upstairs. so apparently he was like telling everyone about the error made, and i've been unknowingly flamed. and what pisses me off the most was his reply to cass and the msn nick. just grow up dude! the world does not revolve around just you! anyways its seriously up to him whether he wants to inform his team to take the photo.
- the prayer
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- obirick
- November 14th, 2008
just finished 2 papers yesterday, OB and IT, and wow it kinda drained all my brain juice for that freaking day. OB and IT were both challenging in a way i think that i kinda wrote rubbish for both papers. all i need now is just to pray that i will pass the exams and i'm contented that i just get 'B's for my papers. up next is marketing, another real killer. maybe i'm just those that don't really love ambiguity.
i was youtube-ing just now and it just so happen that i came across anthony callea's vids again. just listened to "the prayer" (how appropriate now for my examinations) and boy was it uplifting. just wanna share this powerful performance.
ok back to work! GO GO market-ing
- the drunkards
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- obirick
- November 8th, 2008
just celebrated housemate's birthday yesterday at edwin's house. caught up with some of my tengah friends regarding about camp life. congrats to edwin who just been catted local postion in tower. also joel was rather quiet that day. even though he never said much that day, we kinda speculated that it was due to girl issues. just cheer up dude! everyone went through that before.
as usual, the night started out with our traditional "绿茶" game, followed by "7 up", some "derive-24-points-from-4-cards" game and some game that was similiar to "snap". now reflecting on what we played last night, i guess boys would always be boys, we always find such "mentally challenging" games fun even they may seem logically retarded. oh well at least we had fun right?
anyways, our plan for the night was to get both housemate and felix really drunk and wasted because,
1) it was housemate's birthday celebration so we would have to make him drunk right? if not that would be violating the rules of a birthday bash.
2) we failed to make felix drunk during joel's birthday, so we wanted to make sure that it would be successful this time.
3) we just wanted to see those 2 guys in their wasted manner cause they are really entertaining in their drunkard state.
however, we were only 75% successful. we successfully made housemate wasted and gone after he glupped down (on his own accord) 3 bottles of hoegarden. the other 25% was that we only made felix reached his threshold of sanity. give him the 2 thumbs up for being able to hold his liquor that well despite the efforts from the rest to force him drink like a thirsty hippo. not only was he still sober, he did not i repeat DID NOT throw up at all! good grievances!
the night ended with edwin tau pok-ing felix with a mattress, brendan dancing and singing like those japanese girls that you would see on TV with a plastic bag that covered his face and combined efforts from me and edwin stripping housemate. but he was so heavy like a cow, we only manage to strip him off to his boxers. i know its sick but like what i said, guys = mentally challenged when drunk.
some pics to enjoy that occasion
- the music in me
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- obirick
- November 3rd, 2008
the tune of 明天以后keeps lingering in my mind. got to know this song from yes 933 and i think this song is really that addictive after you hear it a few times. so what the heck, just wanna share this. the cantonese version is freakin' nice!
this song is sung by 林峰 and 泳儿. apparently 泳儿kinda joined the 1st season of project superstar, but was ousted soon before that. who says that the winner takes it all. think she is freakin' lucky to sing this duet with 林峰. anyways, fei please learn this song so that we can sing it soon!
- the sucker
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- obirick
- October 31st, 2008
i just had my freakin stats quiz today and i failed for the second time! maybe i'm just too dumb answering the MCQ questions or maybe i'm just so unlucky to get those weirdo questions. anyways no point crying over spilt milk.
FH3 1st issue is finally finalised and has been sent for printing and most probably we will receive it on monday! at least something off my chest for now. exams are coming, and i'm beginning to launch myself into the panicky state. really regretting not attending the marketing lectures cause i have totally no idea what is going on right now. still pampering myself with late nights and unproductive internet surfing to find a nice wallpaper for my laptop.
think this is pretty nice for a wallpaper
yes i know its gary chaw again. but you just gotta hear him sing!
anyways going to chiong for my exams and owned others!
- the 1st JCRC meeting
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- obirick
- October 12th, 2008
currently in the midst of the very 1st JCRC meeting. i'm so bored....
